No Sugar??

Today begins my sugar cleanse for six months. For 1/2 of this year I will not buy and consume Cherry Pull-A-Part Twizzlers or Hershey's Cherry Cordial Kisses and many other forms of sugar/corn syrup favorites. I will exempt yogurt and jello's, though limited, from my no sweets list. I love fruit so this, too, will help me replace my sweet craving. ... I hope.

Why am I doing this? I have been compulsively eating the above mentioned sweets for more than a year and the weight I've gained alarms me. (Duh!!) I can't fit into 3/4 of the clothes I have, and I have ALOT of clothes. I've posted in earlier blogs about my eating disorder and one of the panic triggers is weighing over 145 pounds. Well, I'm way over that!

Maybe my fear of following in my Mother's walk is prompting this sugar cleanse, too.

Mom battled morbid obesity beginning in the late 70's until today. Shortly after she divorced her third husband, Mom got involved with Weight Watchers and for a few years in the 80's she got back down to her knock out self. She never was a thin woman. She was more like a Marilyn Monroe build. But after a couple of years into her fourth marriage, she began to lose control again and ballooned over the years to weighting more than 400 pounds. Broke my heart.

I love Mom dearly and for most of the years she battled with her weight, I was impressed. She was a great dresser and when she'd deck out for church, I'm sure she was the prettiest large woman there! It wasn't until a few years before her fourth husband died, that I became alarmed at how large she was really getting. She only wore dresses and they were so, frumpy and ... well, awful. Eventually she wore only these large, floor length, lounger gowns, sometimes even to church. I understand now, what I didn't then, Mom was probably in the early stages of Dementia Alzheimer's. These last nine years have been very difficult for her ... and me.

So, again, why am I doing this sugar cleanse? To try to get a grip on my unhealthy eating habits. I can learn by Mom's walk how to detour a future crisis by turning now before IT IS too late. It's never too late to change one's bad habits, right? Besides, this is one of my New Year's Resolutions.

Today no sugar. In fact, today I will fast. It will be like a trigger, a break, an impact ... NO FOOD. A day of water, tea and I didn't give up that cup of coffee this morning.

Later in the day ...

The day is near over and my stomach is talking to anyone who will listen. The noise even scared my cats off my lap.

Tomorrow, I will begin my walk into healthier eating habits. If I'm still alive!!