IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU

What can I do to help you?
Not what can I do for you?
Doing for is not helping you.
Instead of helping you,
Doing for can only keep you,
From being a responsible you,
And me stuck always doing for you.
So how can I help you?
How can this chaos be good for you?
All those lies will one day trap you.
Living life focused only on you,
Will destroy those who most love you.
All those clothes look so cool on you.
Even those shoes complete you.
Looking so fine beautifies you,
But good looks will never define you.
That motorcycle makes friends for you,
And those cars make memories for you.
Even that home has consumed all of you.
A home should comfort you,
But a house full of chaos unsettles you.
It has become an unknown trap for you.
More important than family to you.
Family should be a haven for you,
And family should be safe for you.
You've forgotten family is a gift to you,
A gift that should grow with you.
But a family is a burden to you,
When everything they do bothers you.
Where there is more yelling by you,
And less hugging and playing from you,
A home filled with chaos for you.
Chaos has become the best of friends for you,
And family is now the enemy to you,
And the future seems bleak inside you,
When all you see is you!
I fear I am unable to help you.
Nothing I do will be right to you.
Until your focus is off of you,
I will remain an object for you.
An object to use for gain in the world of YOU.
So this is my first step for you.
I must be responsible to me for you.
I must let go of you,
Until the time when you let go of you,
And become a most loving you.
And a bigger part of the world around you.
You will remember the gift of you,
And stop expecting everyone to gift only you.

Hello 2012! Well, this is it. This is the year of a planetary line-up that culminates at the same time the Mayan Calender ends and all kinds of other 'things' are predicted with most pointing to December 21, 2012. What do you think? Me? I'm taking the stance of 'wait and see'. But before I ponder this any further, I want to take a look back, back to 2011.

Remember Those New Year Resolutions of 2011?

Me neither. So I go to my Labels and click on New Years Resolutions and review my resolutions of last year.

2011 review:

1. Stop drinking. Last drink was on New Year's Eve 2010.

~ Nope, I did not remain committed to this resolution. I did stop drinking for several months and when I did begin drinking again it was wine and/or a beer. I did not get drunk until New Year's Eve where I drank a whole bottle of Carolyn's Liquor. I know it has only been a couple of weeks ... but do not plan to get drunk again. A.A. taught me that to guarantee that, don't take a 1st drink again. I'm still drinking a wine or two, or a beer ... so ...

2. Go on a sugar cleanse for at least 6 months.

~ I think I made it for 3 months. :/

3. Go back to eating less red meat and eating more organic and healthy food.

~ Kept this resolution as best I could. Went through the 2011 holidays eating more red meat and pork than I did all year. But back on the path of less is best.:)

4. Take up my Yoga again.

~ Nope, didn't commit to this one. Bummer!

5. Reconnect with family.

~ Does Facebook count? I can't imagine a long time without connecting with my kids and grandchildren. They fill my heart. But I so miss time with my step-son and with my brothers and sisters and cousins and nieces and nephews ... some of which are within reach, but I'm horrible at connecting with them. Facebook has been a blessing and a curse in this area. Facebook has helped me reconnect with family and keep tabs on their lives but it may also keep me from reaching out in person. :/

6. Reconnect with friends.

~ Yep. Did better in 2011. Still working on this, too. :)

7. Sell most of my stuff and clear out the clutter.

~ Yep. Got so much more to go though. Guess this will be an on-going commitment. :[

8. Find a church home.

~ Nope. Still reading my Bible most every day and pray most all the time. But no church home yet.

Back to 2012

Now here we are, 15 days into the new year. Guess what? I'm not doing any resolutions for this New Year. No resolutions, no disappointments.

Goals. I think I'll make a new list. A list of goals. And until I see how 2012 rings out, I think they'll all be short term goals. It will be a list of things I would like to get done, so if something should happen, ... I would not leave behind a mess for someone else to clean up.

A list of goals, of things I can get done in a short time. No deep stuff. That stuff can't be completed anyway if the climax of 2012 is total global economic collapse and world upheaval such as never before experienced. However, if 2012 goes out like a lamb and I discover I have time for the deep stuff, then long term goals may be added.

For now, though, ... a short list of goals.

Or, rather, a list of short-term goals. That is the only list I'm gona commit to this year.

And no. I am not going to blog my list of short-term goals.

RYENN AND HER PICTURES

1. Only Eagle she could put in picture.
2. Picture collage of Nana, Ryenn and a fish in a tank.
3. Cousin Corban and Nana
4. Windy Lake McCanaughy.
5. Windy and hazy Lake Mac.
6. The view from her side of the car.
7. Corban and Photographer
8. The most important woman in her life, Mom!
9. Most important fella in her life (at least for now), Dad!
10 and 11. Self portraits. Ms Ryenn herself! ♥