A fog rolled in last night and when it lifted this morning, everything was frosted white. If you compare this picture to this blogs opening picture, note the little apple tree is dormant. No green apples, no coyote....just frosty winter white.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS 2010
That time of year again. A new year brings a yearning for new beginnings, passion for changes and a hope that transformation is possible. We can transform, right? So, out comes the pad and pen and a list of to do's is about to begin.
Looking to the past old years and reflecting on changes, it is important to check the course. As the years build upon each other, is the course a stable one and do the years of memories bring on a flood of joy?
Nope.
At best, these last few years bring on a stream of joy and a weary soul that is embarassed to be nearing 60 and discovering her course is not any closer to stable than when her years were young.
So here I am, keyboard to finger tips in place of pad and pen, and about to begin to review, reflect and charter a new course with a new list of to do's, in my New Year's resolutions for 2010:
1. I resolve to continue not praying for myself. Disappointment is blinding me.
2. I resolve to let go of the chains of the past and forgive more, starting with me.
3. I resolve to be better than I have been, even yesterday, to stop pitying me.
4. I resolve to get out of the ME trunk, since right off the bat, the first three resolves end with ME!
5. I resolve to be close to God again. I don't hear him like those first few years when I 'Vison Quested' to Bear Butte near Strugis, SD in the late 90's, early 2000. Did I hear Him after 9-11-2001? When did that 'Still Small Voice' become so silent? I need You God! I need to hear you! And, yeah, this should probably be my first resolve! Getting closer might just mean putting God 1st and then box up the rest of these resolves and put them in His trust.
6. I resolve to sell most of my stuff and clear out most of the clutter in my life. (Note to kids: I will sell only what you don't want, so let me know what you want.)
7. I resolve to get more organized and stop...no, cut back might keep this resolution from failing, so...get more organized and cut back on my procrastination.
8. I resolve to find something I love working at and finish these last few years doing that which I love. I'm so tired if 'having' to do...I really want to 'love' to do.
9. I resolve to take better care of this body God gave me. I have made so many adjustments over my 50+ years but I have many more, yet, required of me.
to be continued....
